Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Plateau

I don't know if I am the only one or if I'm selfish or if I'm a loner or if I'm just plain mean but when I don't feel like being bothered, I DON'T feel like being bothered. The thing is I used to have an escape. In college, I'd take a walk or go looking around and my roommate (who is the most awesomest roommate ever) wouldn't bother me or ask where I was going. Now that idea is a little far fetched. Now let me preface my anger with this: I honestly don't mind letting someone know where I'm going when I'm leaving the house, but if I didn't ask you to come DON'T invite yourself. Sometimes I like to be alone and sit with my thoughts and marvel at my ideas. Or for that matter I don't always want to go places with him and that is in general. He has a sort of weird "us/our" mentality in his head. I guess because we both like new things and travelling but I know like hell I don't want him to come on every trip I go on. I know I digress but I've been feeling like this for a while. (Back to our regularly scheduled programming) It doesn't happen all that often but when it does I need space. While I love my roommate to death, I don't think that he has picked up on this trait of mine yet. If I were to get up and walk toward the door right now, he'd ask me where I was going. And he'd think that I'd be wrong not to tell him. Sometimes I just need some ME-time.

So I found out how I can change this. I NEED A HOBBY!!! Something that I can do alone. That's of no interest to my roommate and I've found that is a book club. The sooner this happens the better off our relationship would be. I also think I'm going to join a gym. Now, I thought us working out together would be awesome but honestly, he just talks too much. Ok, ok, enough bashing of the homie because I really love my bff.

-I Am the Avalanche - Murderous

1 comment:

Beez said...

Dude... you've got to tell roommie that sometimes, you've gotta just BE. It'll drive you more nuts if you hold it in. It turns to resentment, then you're packing up and moving out before daylight to keep the drama down. It's perfectly natural to want some time to just... uh, be yourself.

As far as the hobby, maybe check a free reader in DC for some random free activities to get into? That's how I picked up bellydancing that one time. And I won't even get into that time I wandered into a random Scandinavian folk dancing class... o_O